taking time for me.

i have hundreds of voices telling me what is right and what i need. all i know that i need is to start going outside my comfort level. i have lots of dreams and things i've always wanted to do; it is about time i start doing them. i am not happy with who i am, and i have never given myself one moment to breath and find that deep peace within myself, to find that deep sense of joy that cannot be rocked by one single person. i have this sort of idealized sense of love, and because of that, at some point, always, my relationships begin to fail. and i forgot to have balance and love myself. does this all sound something short of "eat, pray, love"? well it feels like it. there is a boy who feels "right", but things aren't working. we're taking space, and he still feels different, and i don't know what that means. but there is one thing i do know. before i give anyone my heart, right or not, i must learn to give myself the love that i deserve and need to survive. or i am no good to anyone, not even myself. so. i am going to love myself, and follow my heart (as cheesy as that may sound). 

first things on the list:

-road trip (all by myself!) down south to visit friends and breathe in warm air.

-more things in the works... coming soon.

i've found that when i vocalize to other people and put out there that i will be doing things, that i do them much more often. so expect to hear of many more adventures and experiences in my life in the near future. i am looking for myself.

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