i am headed to Portland for the weekend to spend time with beautiful friends, tie up some loose ends for my coming trip to Spain, and get away for the weekend. i plan on:

• taking my camera and using it as much as possible
• looking for that typewriter that i know is out there waiting for me
• getting some much needed book time at Powell's [a little piece of heaven for me]
  
• laughing until my side hurts til all hours of the night
• staying up all night to watch the sunrise
  
• letting go
• making someone smile

what is everyone else doing this weekend?
[image f: Sebastian]

please

you will experience life in a way that you never knew existed. if you can't think of anything make a list. a list of things that are crazy and spontaneous, things that force you to be brave. then post it on your fridge. there is someone waiting inside you to blossom.

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good morning!

the sun is shining, and i am in a cheery disposition! i think that today is going to be a wonderful day.

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music is what life sounds like

I am a lover, and i am a dreamer
I've been that down, and i've loved, and i've lost
I've been alone, been far from home
Follow your heart and you won't get lost



the last line is so inextricably true. it resonates within every part of me and everything i have known. your heart will never lead you wrong. that is one thing i am sure of. deep down in your soul you know what is right, but it just takes learning how to be still and listening. sometimes following what you know to be true can be the hardest choice, but in the end our hearts are there to direct us.

my fav. postsecret of the week

i see god in many places. everyone sees god in their own way/beliefs. it makes me happy just to know that god is revealed to each person in different, distinct ways. to some nature is god, love experienced, devotions. whatever it is, as long as it gives people faith and hope it is never wrong.

"And a part of you was drawn to her, and a part of you resisted. In the same breath you felt the strength of a man, and a self-pity that made you feel small and hurt. Part of you thought: Please don't look at me. If you don't, I can still turn away. And part of you thought: Look at me." -Nicole Krauss


i've reached that point. i keep you at a distance; try so hard to hold up my walls. my defenses are becoming weakened, and i don't think i can bear the weight of my protection any longer. i want to be myself, let go. do you know how impossible that is for someone like me? my heart is too big for something so unsure. i am itching to burst out of my skin. you have one foot in my heart, and the other ready to run the other direction at any moment. you're still here, but i don't know if i can be for much longer. i don't know how to be half-hearted. i think it is time you become sure about something.

Macenzie engaged!